Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Crossing Paths

I spoke to someone from a lifetime ago today. She’s dying and has been for two years. I was so humbled after the conversation that I had to blog about her. You see she kept saying how she believes people’s paths cross for a reason.

Now we hadn’t talked in years, and I was in fact quit surprised when she sent a friend request on Facebook awhile back. She and her husband are still married after more years than most last these days. We were never close or good friends. I knew her mostly because I taught her children as preschoolers in Sunday School (the kids came through our bus ministry.) And then I sold her Avon once in awhile.

Today for the first time I believe I got to really know her. She shared how she’d been raised a Nazarene preacher’s kid, rebelled as a teen, came back and rebelled again. Her life wasn’t an easy one, due a lot to choices she made. But her love for God is so deep today and radiates so brightly that I hope my little beacon is even a fraction of what she shines.

All of our kids have grown and moved on. I divorced; while she and her husband remain together and are both critically ill. Today she lives two doors from where we raised our family, and she said she thinks about me often. And I wondered why. But then again I think about one of her daughters periodically, even though it’s probably been 25 years.

I hope I was half the blessing she was to me today. She’s been told to put her affairs in order, which she is doing, with the faith that it’s too early to do such things. She’s younger than I, so way too young to die. But without insurance, she’s unable to receive the next treatment plan for her cancer…. I guess I have to agree with her in that God allows every one of our paths to cross for a reason. Today I took the time to thank Him for the many, many, many people whose path has crossed with mine. I think I’m going to pay a little better attention to those new paths from here on out.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Pure Ministry

I have come to realize ministry in its purest form. My church does services during the week at homes that typically house the elderly. The one I lead is for people with memory issues. I've only been doing this for several months, but have come to understand the meaning of pure ministry.

You see, there is nothing to be gained by ministering to these people. They won't make any life changing decisions. You can't predict their behavior from week to week. Sometimes they don't even know who I am. Some can't communicate...many can't hear you very well. Once in awhile someone will sob uncontrollably for no apparent reason. Yet ministering to them has become one of the most meaningful experiences of my life.

I recently equated it to caring for a baby. You do nothing but wait on an infant 24/7. The result of that care is maybe a dirty diaper. But don't we love those precious little bundles! I've come to care that deeply for my little congregation that I serve every week.

Why don't I approach all my ministry work the same way? The only conclusion I've reached so far is that I have no expectations. I'm a new face every week I come for many of them. Yet they bless me. It has nothing to do with them and everything to do with my attitude. Now to change that attitude in every aspect of my life.

I think too that I've gotten a glimpse of God's love and care of me. I fall far shorter of what I could be, yet His compassion remains. Can there be a purer love!